Day 13 ~ I'm Sorry

Today we are to issue a public apology

and to be truthful ~ I have been thinking about this for awhile

and this morning I had an aha moment

via

I am sorry for saying no

I know ~ I was always a yes girl

oh yes ~ I will help you move on the weekend

and help plan your wedding

and decorate the night before

and pick up that cake and take it out of my way

oh yes ~ I will drop in there

after I leave here because I don't really have anywhere else to be

but here, here and here

I was constantly running

making promises to people that tired me out

then one day I stopped

I got off the hamster wheel

because a co-worker gave me a business card

and on the back he had written

NO

he told me to keep it in my pocket and pull it out at random

I think he knew me better than I knew myself

It took me until my early 30's to realize

that I had to please myself first

I did not have to be on the tear all the time

it was ok to sit and put your feet up

and not have to be somewhere every waking moment

some feelings got hurt ~ most understood

I also stopped calling people 

that did not make the effort to pick up the phone

and call me once in awhile

one said to her brother that I was also friends with

"I miss Lori"

he then replied ~ have you called her?

my line was also ~ oh ~ does your phone only receive calls

do you not have a dial tone and a key pad?

works every time

I either never hear from them again

or they get it

sometimes the truth hurts.....